Lost

Wandering through these crowded streets
among all these people celebrating nothing
i feel as clueless as one could ever be
going back and forth in time in my mind
this place is not new to me
these people arent unfamiliar too
it just happens that i have been here
before in my happier times with her
i feel so lost
the crowds make me feel lonely
i feel so damn frustrated at them
i am shattered to my core
and they seem to care for me no more

i am lost on my path
with the thoughts of my past
i am lost in my life
with her memories on my mind
i am lost in my faith
with all my hopes on my fate
i am lost in my love
i am lost in her love
i am lost . i am lost
i am lost and i have lost my love



she felt i'll move on
she felt it would just be a matter of time
why is it that its been a year
and i havent been able to keep her off my mind
i see her everyday sailing through her life
i see her watching me from the corner of her eye
what is it that's keeping her away from me
what's wrong with her, why's she acting so strange
i am shattered to my core
she wants to be with me no more
i kept crying all the time
while she walked out of my life
now i am wandering through these places
looking at all these familiar faces
and i feel lost

i am lost on this path
with the thoughts of my past
i am lost in my life
with her memories on my mind
i am lost in my faith
with all my hopes on my fate
i am lost in my love
i am lost in her love
i am lost . i am lost
i am lost and i have lost my love


I kept looking for a reason all this while
and all she cared to send my was a "I am sorry" sign.
she could never look in my eyes and tell me this
she had done all kinds of stuff to forget me too
she had spent the last year crying just like i had
she pretended to be happy so that it would help me to not feel bad
she was trying to be with me while she was away
she was craving to be there for me while she was elsewhere
i still dont know her reason
but thats not important i guess
whats important is that she had to
do things that she didnt want to.
while i kept seeing her watching me from the corner of her eye
what i couldnt see was the tears she hid in the other corner
i kept asking her to come back
but she had to go
now i think about the dreams we shared
and i feel lost

i am lost on this path
with the thoughts of my past
i am lost in my life
with her memories on my mind
i am lost in my faith
with all my hopes on my fate
i am lost in my love
i am lost in her love
i am lost . i am lost
i am lost and i have lost my love

____________________________________________________________

Please dont ask me what this post is...I mean even I wouldnt be able to answer that...This is not an article and it is by no means a poem (Now you know what i wanted to do :-P)
Its just an expression which just happens to be a long one :-)